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the reward is so much greater than the risk

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Le Love,
I read this blog all the time but over the break I hadn't been able to get to it. I just caught back up and in the process I saw the picture, this picture, you posted and I started crying...

Honestly I know that thousands of people have regrets about risks not taken but mine keep mounting up.

#1: Edwin = “Chances we didn’t take”
Edwin was my really good friend, then one I opened up to without feeling like I needed to get romantically involved with him. He was also the one I couldn’t tell my family or friends about because of his race. When we both started feeling for each other we both knew I would be risking a lot more than he. In the end I didn’t take the chance. REGRET #1.

#2: Mike = “Relationships we were afraid to have”
Mike is a great guy who is slightly older than me. My friend’s initial reaction to him was mixed which caught me off-guard. I ended up telling him we should just be friends way earlier than I should have—I didn’t even give him a chance really. REGRET #2

#3: Mike (again)= “Decisions we waited too long to make”
It’s been 3 weeks since we talked…I screwed it up Big Time. Sometimes I think if texting him and acting like it was an accident just to open up communication again, but I am afraid he is still upset. Why didn’t I just let him in? REGRET #3.

Can someone please tell me how they stop the regrets from mounting up? Because I can’t take many more…..and they are all 100% my fault.

chaos/order

unknown

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Mulla on ollu varmaan jostain kesästä asti aluilla tämmönen postaus weheartit:n kuvista, ja nyt kun sain uuden koneen jossa ei oo vielä mitään kuvanmuokkausohjelmaa (=en voi tehä normipostausta), niin tää onkin täydellinen hetki tehä tämmönen. :) Tää "haaste" on kuuden osion pitunen, mutta koska en osannu valita miljoonista ihanista kuvista vaan muutamaa, niin jaan tän ainakin kaheks eri postaukseks.

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Makeup Tutorial

*Blogged by Maria*

Hey guys! Today I'm doing a really quick, simple and easy tutorial for you. Again, I'm so sorry for the lack of makeup videos but I'm hoping to make it up to you in the coming weeks.

So here is my makeup tutorial for Kristen's most recent appearance on Regis & Kelly.




PRODUCTS

RIMMEL LONDON STAY MATTE FOUNDATION in 100 IVORY

GOSH X-CEPTIONAL WEAR FOUNDATION in 11 PORCELAIN

URBAN DECAY SHADOW PRIMER POTION

RIMMEL LONDON TRIO in 621 ORION

AVON SUPERSHOCK GEL EYELINER in BLACK

AVON GLIMMERSTOCK BROW DEFINER in DARK BROWN

LANCOME HYPNOSE PRECIOUS CELLS in BLACK


FACE

After moisturising with Nivea soft moisturiser, I blended my two foundation together and applied it in a sheer - medium layer using my fingers. There was no need for powder as I was using an effective matte foundation.

EYES

After applying the primer, I applied a cream colour in a thick layer to the eyelid only. Then I applied a dark brown colour to the socket and blended it. I repeated this step until the shadow was dark enough without any harsh lines. Then, I applied a black eye liner to the upper lid as close to the lash line as possible in a thin line and then smudged the line using my thin eye shadow brush. Next I coloured my brows using a dark brown brow pencil. You may add a clear mascara over your brows to keep them in place. Then apply mascara and you’re done with the look.

my confession

leslie

I'm only young. But in my short life I've seen love, love lost and found, love shallow and true. This blog is beautiful, it helps me feel when I was numb before. I don't think you'll publish this, but I trust you to understand, and I need understanding. Here goes.

I don't know why I always do this. There must be a genetic quirk in my brain or something, because I genuinely can't help myself. He is beautiful. He is smart. He is gentle and sweet and sexy and moody and as close to perfection as I can stand. Close as I can imagine. We've never kissed, never touched even. But I am his. For sure, I am his. Whether he wants me or not. There is no doubt about that. I think he wants me too. I think he's close to wanting me, close to doing something about the way we are.
But this weekend. I made my mistake. The same one I always make. To be brutally honest and not in an arrogant way, I've always been the sort of girl with quite a few guys around me, but until this weekend I've managed to keep away from them. Managed to rebuff their advances gently and sweetly while never losing the dreamy expression that the one I belong to gives me. I woke up this weekend. I woke up when I fell asleep in his arms. It wasn't the right him.
I was at this person's house. I drank wine with his mother, and mine. Then they went to bed, he slid a movie into the machine. His house is a beautiful farmhouse in the country; cold and big. We were in the smallest room on a couch with a blanket and a coal fire in the corner. I don't know that I need to be explicit here; one thing led to another. He cradled me in his strong arms, he kissed me with his lips and tongue and teeth, I felt his heart pounding through the thin cotton of my shirt. He was lovely. It was amazing. But he wasn't the right him.
And now I don't know what to do. My guilt is crushing me- not that I really did anything all that wrong. He's not mine, I'm not his. Not officially. But if that's true, why do I feel so sick? This is my confession. I wish I hadn't needed something like this to make me realise how much I love him. Because now I don't deserve him.

I needed to tell someone.
I feel embarrassed, and stupid, both the user and the used, full of self-loathing. This is my confession.


I love you, Christopher, with every shattered piece of my wasted heart. I'm sorry for everything.

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See Kristen’s Elie Saab Couture Dress At Harrods

Harrods is showcasing twelve of Elie Saabs most famous couture designs worn by celebrities. Kristen’s Elie Saab Fall 2009 Couture white one shouldered dress will be included in the display for any fashion lovers interested in viewing it a little closer.

The showcase will run until 22nd December with no entry fee. You can find it located in the stores Luxury Collections Display Lobby

 

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this one goes out to all the best friends

denimandflowers

It's a different type of love, and maybe we all need a break from the achey, sweet love that comes with romance, the kind that excludes the rest of the world, the kind that's limited only to you and him / her.

So this one goes out to all the best friends in the world. The ones that smile for you when you excitedly fall in love with some new, unknown boy. The ones that sit through a pack of cigarettes with you at two to five in the morning listening to you cry about said boy who cheated on you even though they've got to be up at six for work. The ones that take time off work / school just for a little naughty afternoon shopping and eating on weekday. The ones who drag you to social events just to distract you from a broken heart. The ones who respond to every facebook, every twitter status update, just so you don't feel so alone and ignored. The ones who recognize you have a right to feel as shitty as you do about the boy who hurt you even though they'd spent the last two years telling you he was nothing but trash, the ones who don't tell you you're a fool, the ones who tell you you've a right to hurt. Because they're also the ones who have the strength and the love enough to tell you to snap out of it, that he was never worth it, because they're also the ones who have the courage to be honest enough to tell you you'd be a fool to take the manipulative creep back. The ones who bombard his messenger account with warnings to leave you alone, the ones who tell him behind your back to leave you well and alone, to stop messing with your mind when he's already with someone else. The ones who introduce you to new and wonderfully normal and loving boys.

This one also goes out to all the best other-gender best friends in the world. The ones that pick you up late at night for supper, just to take you out of your head. The ones that show you not all the men in the world are screw-ups and traitors, the ones that help you believe that good people still exist in the world. The ones you can laugh with without wanting to kiss, the ones who can give you that insight into that boy's soul you've been dying to know. The ones who swear they'll beat up / get the triads to beat up the poor sod who had the poor judgment to cheat on someone as wonderful and incredible as you even though it's the first night they've met you. This one goes out to all the incredible best other-gender best friends in the world who stuck around even when you abandoned them because your possessive ex-boyfriend went loco every time you even spoke to them. The ones that love you exactly the way you are, the ones that don't mind you snuggling against them just for a warm body without asking for anything more, the ones that come all the way down to the club from home just to drive you home, the ones that cry with you when you sit in your darkness wondering what you've done to deserve such betrayal from the one boy you'd give anything for. The ones that hurt with you when you're drowning in your darkness, the ones that hurt because they see your pain and can't do anything to touch you, to help you.

Friends never betray each other. We fight, sometimes. We disagree. We laugh at each other. But friends, friends are something else altogether. Friends are God's way of saying: here, I know it's tough trying to find your soulmate, but here are some other people you know for sure you can count on forever. They're like family, but better because they love you without the moral obligation attached.

I see you, my lovable friends. And I love you. This is my apology, for doing what I did to our friendships, and this is my way of reminding the world that there is more love in the world that what exists between some guy and a girl.

I love you, my best friends. More than I ever loved him. I promise.

Makeup Update

Hey guys! I'm so sorry for the lack of videos recently. I've been super busy with deadlines but I'm hoping to have a video for you this weekend. And for all you Emma Watson fans, I'm going to be doing a whole string of videos on her makeup looks from the HP7 promotional whirlwind with the help of Kiki who will be covering the fashion side of things! For those who want to check those videos and fashion breakdowns when they're posted, head over to the Emma Watson Fashion Blog (http://www.emmawatsonfashion.blogspot.com). There are loads of videos I want to do for Emma, unfortunately that means my Kristen videos will be taking a back seat for a while after this week, but we haven't really seen much of Kristen lately apart from Breaking Dawn set pics so I'm hoping you guys won't hate me! Thanks for the concerns,you're all incredibly sweet. I have no idea what I'd do without you! Ok, now I'm getting super cheesy so I'm gonna go. Love you all! Bye!! xxxx

never love a wild thing

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Le Love is now on TWITTER! ♥

he will make me complete

oh magpie!

It's not like I won't find someone new, you know.

We both know it's not exactly a question about lack of choice. It's only a matter of time before I stumble across that person who will somehow make my world magic again. Just by looking at me he'll put a hundred different feelings in my body and my head will go completely blank when he smiles. My heart will skip a beat from the slightest sound of my phone, and everything I do when he's not around will be colored by his absence.

I will meet someone who doesn't have that need of playing games and instead of following all kinds of rules, simply follows his heart. Someone who makes me wanna look past all the times I've been hurt and feel like it's actually worth risking everything again. Someone who makes me wanna fight my fears of opening up so I can let him in, because the thought of him not knowing me completely is far worse than my fear of rejection.

He will sigh at my stupid jokes and the way I tend to forget stuff and mess everything up, but deep down he'll love it because love's not about accepting each others flaws, it's about loving them because they make us who we are. I will find somebody for whom I am prepared to show not just the strong, independent side of me that the rest of the world know, but also the insecurities that make me wake up in the middle in the night crying because I'm sick of hurting.

He will not give me my confidence back or make me love myself again. I have no need for a fairytale prince who lifts me up on his white horse and saves me. He will make me complete though, in a way no one has ever done before, and together we will get struck by love so hard that nothing will ever be the same again. You see, I know he's out there and I won't stop until I find him. Cause I deserve nothing less than to love someone who loves me back and this I know. So there's really no need for you to worry. He could be right around the corner when I walk out this door today.

The thing is,
With all my heart
I still wish he could have been you.

MOON MADNESS + SMTHIN ELSE = !

Hello there~! oon hyvinhyvin pahoillani etten tullut kirjoittelemaan mitään ennen Tsukiconia vaikka lupasin, mutta siitä lisää myöhemmin! Ne jotka jaksaa saa lukaista hieman muita kuulumisia.

Ensimmäinen asia minkä haluan kertoo että täälläpäin on satanut lunta! ;ww; oon aika happy nyt, vaikken siedäkään kylmää ja rasittavaa kun ei voi pitää enää legginsejä, niin silti pihalla näyttää paljon kauniimmalta ja valoisemmalta! *_____*

Sitten, vaatepuolen kannalta oon huomannu pyöriväni alennusmyynneissä. :'--D Esim toi neulekin oli 15 €, ja tän hetkiset meikitkin on ostettu taktiikalla 'osta 2 saat 3!' etcetc. Oon kyllä tosi tyytyväinen että rahaa säästyy ees jotenkin, mutta niitä vaatteitakin tulee ostettua vaan enemmän siinä hairaduksessa koska 50% ! xD

Hiukset on vaihtanut väriä! huomatkaa toki hyvin kaunis muokkaus^ mutta tosiaan puolikestoväril värjätty, ja tänään ku pesin hiukset niin huomaa että vaaleni hieman. :'--)

Ja tosta kuvasta näkyy huonosti meidän luokkahuppari, yey. Edestä ei oo kovin erikoinen, mutta selkäpuolella on iso tähti, mihin sisälle on kirjoitettu meidän luokan kirjain ja nimet. :---D musta ihan jees, voin näyttää joskus parempaa kuvaa ja näyttää ne housutki!

Olin siis Tsukiconissa! Olin  ehtiny säheltää sen asian kanssa vaikka kuinka, koska iik en tienny mitä oisin laittanu sinne, mille keikoille meen etcetc. Oli monta ideaa, ja lopuksikin kun luulin tietäväni niin löysin itteni yhtäkkiä miettiis cossii yhden kaverin kaa. Ehti olla 2-3 cossia ennen kun saatiin päätettyä..

mut tosiaan, pyörin siel failis cossissani, jotkut ehkä huomasivat sen sivu bannerista tai miksikä tuota sivulla olevaa juttua sanotaanki! Cossailin siis Vistlippien Tohyaa, thank god jos ette tiiä kyseistä jätkää, sillä en ollut kauheen edustava siellä. ::: DDDD ens kerralla kun alan cossailee niin teen kyl ton saman cossin paremmin, ja varaan siihen aikaa enemmän ku se yks viikko vaan ja hankin kaikki ne sälät korut piilarit yms! >:---(

Itelläni niitä kuvii ei oo, mut jos kiinnostaa voin pyydellä niitä yhelt kaverilt! Mut näytin kuitenki aika vammaselt nii asd voitte unohtaa senki asian. ::------D

Keikoistakin sen verran että pääsin katsastamaan Hittin livenä! Iha jees se oli, ja tiesin et livenä se olis paljon parempaa kuunneltavaa kun mitä omasta tuolistaan youtubesta. ;) Mut en edelleenkään pääse siitä ajatuksesta eroon et se muistutti enemmän italialais/espanjalais latino -tanssijaa. XDDD forgive me.
Oisin kauheesti halunnu nähä kans Yumachin ja Ainan, mutta siihen ei jäänyt aikaa. Eniten oon katkera kuitenkin siitä etten päässy näkee ALSDEADIA. Mä _tiedän, et en ikinä ois unohtanu niiden esitystä, ja muutenki aloin tyksii niiden musast. Ja oivoi ette ikinä arvaa kui sulosii ne oli ku olin kattoos niiden Q&A:n ja kävin pyytäs nimmarit. ;;----;;;♥ oikeesti awawawa EN KESTÄ. Täs olis aihe mist voisin jankata ikuisuuksiin tääl mut säästän teidät yksityiskohdilta. :))) Yhes vaihees olin niin paniikis siinä jonoattes ku halusin antaa niille jonkilaista lahjaa mutten ollut ehtinyt aatella sitä ollenkaan, niin vedin mun lompakost 5€ lahjakortin mäkkäriin. oon sulone tiiän senki. Mut aw ku niide rumpali alko ekaks kirjottaa siihe nimmariaa ku se käsitti vähäse väärin ;uu;♥ tuitui pientä.

Coni oli kyl aika perus mitä esim kesälläki, tai ehkä mun odotukset oli vähän suurempia, who guess. :/ Mutta oli silti kivaa, ja näinki ihmisii siellä. :-----) thanks to the all of you guys! ♥

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Löytyisiköhän lukijoitteni joukosta Minnua, joka voitti Taitokorujen blogissa helmiarvonnan? Meiliä laitettu, luethan blogissasi ilmoitetun sähköpostin sisältöä ;)

Ja ettei tulisi aivan kuvaton postaus, niin eilen valmistuneet korvakorut. Luminen teema jatkuu ripauksella romanttisia värejä.

what hurts you, hurts me

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Ashanti acting career

Ashanti Shequoiya Douglas, (born October 13, 1980) is an American recording artist, record producer, actress, dancer, and model who rose to fame in the early 2000s. Ashanti is most famous for her eponymous debut album Ashanti, which featured the hit song "Foolish", and sold over 503,000 copies in its first week of release throughout the U.S. in April 2002. The album set a Soundscan record as the biggest opening week sales for a new female artist, outselling debuts by Alicia Keys and Lauryn Hill In the same week, she became the first female performer to simultaneously hold the top two places on the Billboard Hot 100 singles chart with "Foolish", and "What's Luv?" (with Fat Joe). Ashanti broke records again by having three top ten songs, "Foolish," "What's Luv?" and "Always on Time" on the Billboard Hot 100 charts in the same week, being the first woman to accomplish this feat and being second only to the Beatles. In 2003, the self titled debut album won Ashanti her first Grammy Award for Best Contemporary R&B album. As of 2008, she has sold more than 27 million albums worldwide. Ashanti ended the decade (2000–09) as the third top new R&B artist behind Alicia Keys and Beyonce Knowles.She also ended the decade at number 38 on the Top Artist of the Decade list. As of 2010, Ashanti is listed in the 20 Best Selling Music Singles Since 1990 in History[citation needed]. She ranked #17, with Foolish selling more than 7.4 million copies in the U.S.

Ashanti has sung background vocals for Jennifer Lopez on "I'm Real (Murder Remix)" and wrote and sung background on the song "Ain't It Funny (Murder Remix)" sung by Jennifer Lopez, both reaching number one on Billboard Hot 100 , which was also in the top 10 charts at the same time as "Foolish", "Always on Time" (with Ja Rule), and "What's Luv" (with Fat Joe). Later that year, she was acclaimed as the "Princess Of Hip-Hop & R&B" by her label and capped off her successful debut by winning eight Billboard awards and two American Music Awards. Within 7 years of Ashanti's career, she has scored 16 top 40 hits on the Hot 100. Ashanti has endorsed numerous products including Gap, Herbal Essences and Mudd Jeans.

Ashanti cites Janet Jackson, Prince, Madonna, Tupac Shakur, Tamia, Mary J. Blige, Ella Fitzgerald, Peggy Lee, Yolanda Adams, Luther Vandross, The Beatles, the Clark Sisters, Smokey Robinson, Donna Summer, and Blue Magic as her musical influences. Praised as a gifted songwriter by her peers and critics alike, Ashanti has written/co-written the bulk of all her music. She is currently working on her own publishing company entitled Written Entertainment. She released her fourth studio album entitled The Declaration on June 3, 2008 and is currently in the studio working on her fifth. She also performed the charity tune "Just Stand Up" alongside 14 other female singers for the "Stand Up to Cancer" live television special which helped raise $100 million dollars for cancer research.
Contents
* 1 Early life
* 2 Recording career
o 2.1 Early career
o 2.2 Murder Inc.
o 2.3 Debut album: Ashanti (2002)
o 2.4 Chapter II (2003)
o 2.5 Ashanti's Christmas
o 2.6 Concrete Rose (2004-2005)
o 2.7 Collectables by Ashanti
o 2.8 The Declaration (2008)
o 2.9 Departure from The Inc.
o 2.10 2009-present
* 3 Acting career
o 3.1 The Wiz
* 4 Other activities
o 4.1 Philanthropy
* 5 Discography
* 6 Filmography
o 6.1 Films
o 6.2 Television
o 6.3 Theatre
* 7 See also
* 8 Notes
* 9 References
* 10 External links
Early life
Ashanti Shequoiya Douglas was born on October 13, 1980, in Glen Cove, New York. She is African American of Saharan descent. Her nickname is "Bon Bon" given to her by her family. She acquired a love for music from her mother, Tina Douglas, a former dance teacher and her father, Ken-Kaide Thomas Douglas, a former singer. She has a younger sister named Kenashia. Her mother named her after the Ashanti Empire in Ghana; in this nation, women had power and influence, and Ashanti's mother wanted her daughter to follow that model. Her grandfather, James, was a civil-rights activist who associated with Martin Luther King, Jr. during the 1960s.[ Growing up, Ashanti took dance lessons and joined the church choir. Ashanti went to Bernice Johnson Cultural Arts Center, where she studied different dance styles, including tap, jazz, ballet, African, modern, and hip hop. She danced with the Senior Pro Ensemble at Carnegie Hall, the Apollo Theater, Brooklyn Academy of Music, Avery Fisher Hall, and the Black Spectrum Theater. She also performed at the 1994 Caribbean Awards and dancing with Judith Jamison of the Alvin Ailey Dance Company. With actress and choreographer Debbie Allen at the helm, Ashanti also performed in the Disney television film Polly alongside stars Keshia Knight Pulliam Jomecia Moore and Phylicia Rashad.

When she was six, Ashanti sang in a gospel choir, but her mother discovered her full singing potential when she overheard Ashanti singing Mary J. Blige's "Reminisce" to her at age twelve. By the time Ashanti hit puberty, her mother was sending out demo tapes of her singing and dancing. The family could not afford to go to a studio and record a formal demo, so when labels called, Ashanti would have to sing and dance in front of the record company executives. While attending high school, she began to write songs. As a teenager, she performed in a local talent show and at the Soul Cafe, China Club, Madison Square Garden, Caroline's Comedy Club and Greek Fest 2000. In her first major singing performance, Ashanti performed Yolanda Adams's "More Than a Melody". She also appeared in a number of big-name music videos, in addition to other dance work.

She cites Janet Jackson, Prince, Tupac Shakur, Marvin Gaye, Mariah Carey, Madonna, Ella Fitzgerald, Peggy Lee, Blue Magic, Smokey Robinson, Luther Vandross, The Clark Sisters, Mary J. Blige, and Donna Summer amongst her musical influences.
Recording career
Early career
When Ashanti was fourteen, she was discovered by P.Diddy's Bad Boy Records. Initially, she went to Bad Boy Records and sang one of Mary J. Blige's songs in front of P.Diddy and Biggie Smalls. After being impressed by her singing ability, Diddy had her sign to a development deal. In the end, due to a bad contract, Ashanti did not sign with Diddy. This ultimately led to a record deal with Jive Records in 1994. This relationship soured when Jive tried to make Ashanti into a pop singer.
Ashanti subsequently involved herself in schoolwork, cheerleading, and running on her school's track team. She was an honor student in English and belonged to the English club where she began writing poetry. She was also in the Drama club and performed in a few plays. she put college pursuits aside when Epic Records approached her with a contract in 1998. However, the label's management changes quickly made Ashanti a low priority. She continued to perform at local New York clubs and began hanging out at the Murder Inc. recording studio, hoping for another big break
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