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and i wonder, do you remember me after all this time?

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We grew up in the same neighborhood. We never hung out because our neighborhood groups never seemed to come together. I only knew you as one of the neighborhood boys. It wasn’t until high school that the way I saw you changed. I was a sophomore and you were a senior. I don’t know what it was. Your height? You always towered over everyone. Or how quiet you seemed when you were hanging out with your friends during break? I used to make my group of friends stand near your group, that way I could sneak glances at you. But I wasn't slick. You’d catch me staring and when our eyes would meet, my heart would skip a beat and my cheeks would burn. Then after months of always staring from a distance, I was in desperate need of a ride home because my sister had to go to ballet practice and I didn’t know which school bus went to my neighborhood. So, you offered. And the whole ride there, I stared out the window, paralyzed with fear. Fear of how I felt. Fear of saying something utterly ridiculous and ruining any tiny chance I had for you to notice me as more than that girl who lives in the same neighborhood. You asked me vague questions. Isn't your sister _____? What kind of music do you like? Is this radio station okay? When you dropped me off at my house, I quickly said 'thank you' and ran inside. We never talked again after that. Never acknowledged each other in the hallways or at break. It was like it never happened. But my feelings still remained.

You and my best friend had the same class. I would wait for her to get out so we could go to our next class together. I would make sure I never looked your way because I didn't want you to think I was waiting there because of you. One day, I was waiting and suddenly my best friend comes running out of class, grabs me and drags me away from everybody. She tells me that she has something to tell me but I can't freak out. At this point, I assume the worse. You know and you've told everybody that I'm a pathetic lower classmen who's in love with you. Was I that obvious? But my best friend tells me to relax; the news is good. She tells me you came up to her in class and asked about me. Were her and I best friends? Was I cool? What was I like? Did I have a boyfriend? I don't know how I didn't just drop dead right then and there and float off to heaven after hearing that.

I started noticing you notice me. I'd catch you staring at me more than you'd catch me staring at you. But still, I never did anything. And you never did anything. I was sure you asking about me meant there was some interest. I'd dream that one day you were going to come up to me in school, in front of everyone, and ask me out. Or you'd ring my doorbell and be there on my porch. It neared the end of the school year and I'd try desperately to muster any courage to talk to you but I couldn't. I was sixteen, not confident, and utterly in to you. I didn't want any other guy, period. Essentially, you were my Jake Ryan and I was Molly Ringwald, pining for you.

You graduated and I never saw you again. It's been 8 years and I still think about you. Sometimes I think I'm crazy to hold on to my feelings for you. When it comes down to it, I don't even know you. We talked once in all the years of existing around each other. So why do I still want you? Why do I still want to get to know you? Is it because there's the possibility of 'what if'? Is it because you're a fantasy I can sometimes revert to when I'm feeling sad and lonely? You have a hold on me that I've tried shaking for years.

And I wonder, do you remember me after all this time?

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is it too late for me?

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I've always been a free spirit. I am constantly looking for something fun and new. If I get bored or restricted, I run. I've never thought of myself as a slut/whore, but someone who likes to do what they want when they want with who they want. I rarely think about the consequences and like to go with what I feel at the time. I never go out looking for trouble, but trouble always seems to find me, and trouble always comes in the form of a boy. I have no problems attracting attention from the opposite sex. It's just that it's never the "right" attention. A typical night out would be my friends and I at a bar/club and a cute boy buying me drinks and dancing with me. For me, it's all about chemistry. It's either there or it's not. Unfortunately, the initial spark between myself and a male always just leads to sex and nothing more.

Looking back, I have been with many guys and unfortunately none of them have been meaningful. I never have usually hooked up with anyone for more than a month or so. When I do develop feelings, I try my best to hide them in fear of being rejected (because most guys don't want relationships). I have been told by several guys that I've been with that they like me because I'm a girl who just "likes to have fun." I am a fun and easy going person and that's what people like about me, but does this mean that I can't be in a relationship?

I am scared that I will never love or truly be loved. I have been in one relationship where I hurt my boyfriend of the time very badly. Perhaps this is karma. I was young, stupid, and selfish. I just turned 23. Recently, I have been feeling more alone than ever. I have great girl friends, but none of them seem to really understand what I feel. Guys that I'm attracted to and who I also in turn attract are always those who are never emotionally available. One guy that I was hooking up with for awhile that I started developing feelings for a couple years ago even told me that I am not "girlfriend material."

Perhaps I am evolving and I do want something more stable, because I've never been a part of something real. I know I stopped myself before from liking/loving someone because I have a fear of them leaving me or hurting me, but now I am even open to that possibility. Is it too late for me? Everyone already sees me as "the fun girl" so how do I change? How do I attract the right type of guys who are willing to love me for me?

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Alicia Roanne Witt born August 21, 1975 is an American film, stage, television actress and singer.
Contents
* 1 Early life
* 2 Career
* 3 Filmography
o 3.1 Television
* 4 Theatre
* 5 References
* 6 External links
Early life
Witt was born in Worcester, Massachusetts. Her mother, Diane (née Pietro), is a junior high school reading teacher, and her father, Robert Witt, is a science teacher and photographer. She has a brother, Ian. Witt was discovered by David Lynch when she appeared on the television show That's Incredible! in 1980; she had recited Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. He cast her in the movie Dune (1984), where she played Paul Atreides' young sister Alia. She turned eight during filming. Afterwards, she left Hollywood to concentrate on her studies and music. She was home schooled by her parents. She won several national and international classical piano competitions, including the "Bartok-Kabalevsky International Piano Competition".
At age 14, Witt earned her high school diploma. Shortly thereafter, she moved to Hollywood with her mother (who was noted from 1988–93 in the Guinness Book of Records for the world's longest hair) to pursue a career as a full-time actress. Soon, Lynch, to whom she refers as a mentor, created the role of Gersten Hayward especially for her in his successful series Twin Peaks. He cast her again in Blackout, a segment in his short-lived HBO series Hotel Room.
career
During this time, Witt supported herself by playing piano at the Regent Beverly Wilshire Hotel. She went on to play small parts in Mike Figgis' Liebestraum (in which her brother Ian also appears), the Gen-X drama Bodies, Rest & Motion and the TV movie The Disappearance of Vonnie. In 1994, the red-haired Witt landed her first lead role in a film, playing a disturbed teenager in Fun. She received the Special Jury Recognition Award at the Sundance Festival and was nominated for Best Actress at the Independent Spirit Awards. This performance inspired Madonna to recommend Witt to be cast as her daughter in the first segment, "The Missing Ingredient" of Four Rooms.
Witt was introduced to a larger audience playing the role of Zoey Woodbine, daughter of actress Cybill Shepherd's character in the sitcom Cybill from 1995 to 1998. Between seasons she starred in films: Mr. Holland's Opus, Alexander Payne's abortion comedy Citizen Ruth, Passion's Way and Bongwater. After Cybill was cancelled, Witt received a leading role in the horror film Urban Legend and the animated feature Gen¹³ which was never released because the studio stopped funding before the completion of the movie.
In 2000, Witt had starring roles on the television shows Ally McBeal and The Sopranos; the lead role in the comedy Playing Mona Lisa, a supporting part in John Waters' Cecil B. Demented, and her stage debut in Robbie Fox's musical The Gift at the now-closed Tiffany Theater in Los Angeles, in which she played a high-priced stripper with a disease.
In the years following, Witt's acting career slowed. She had a small part in Cameron Crowe's Vanilla Sky, which was intended as a reference to her roles in Dune and Liebestraum. She also played a college graduate who discussed losing her virginity in the experimental Ten Tiny Love Stories and the trailer-trash "Barbie" in American Girl, which was released to video in 2005.
She appeared in the 2002 romantic comedy Two Weeks Notice starring Hugh Grant and Sandra Bullock. In 2003-2004, she lived primarily in the UK, filming The Upside of Anger opposite Kevin Costner; and she starred as Evelyn in a stage-production of Neil LaBute's The Shape of Things. Between these two projects, she went to South Africa to shoot the German TV movie Kingdom in Twilight which also goes by the names The Sword of Xanten and The Ring of the Nibelungs. She played Kriemhild in this film interpretation of the epic poem Das Nibelungenlied, which was released in the US as Dark Kingdom: The Dragon King. On June 14, 2004, Witt modeled what is believed to be the most expensive hat ever made, for Christie's auction house in London. The Chapeau d'Amour, designed by Louis Mariette, is valued at $2.7 million (US) and is encrusted in diamonds. In September 2006 she returned to the London stage, portraying the piano-playing Abigail, a role in which she demonstrated herself an "outstanding pianist" of "formidable skill", in Piano/Forte at the Royal Court Theatre.
Witt joined the cast of Law & Order: Criminal Intent for the 2007-08 season as Det. Nola Falacci, a character who is a temporary replacement for Megan Wheeler, played by Julianne Nicholson who was away on maternity leave. She is a recurring character in Friday Night Lights for the 2009-10 season.
Witt currently resides in Los Angeles and New York.
Beside her work as an actress, she is working on her music career. Her self-titled EP with four songs was released on iTunes in July 2009.
Filmography
Year Film Role Notes
1984 Dune Alia
1993 Bodies, Rest & Motion Elizabeth
1994 Fun Bonnie
1995 Four Rooms Kiva
Mr. Holland's Opus Gertrude Lang
1996 Citizen Ruth Cheryl
1997 Bongwater Serena
1998 Urban Legend Natalie Simon
1999 Gen¹³ voice of Caitlin Fairchild
2000 Playing Mona Lisa Claire Goldstein
Cecil B. Demented Cherish
2000 The Sopranos Amy Safir
2001 Vanilla Sky Libby
2002 Two Weeks Notice June Carver
2002 American Girl Barbie
2004 Dark Kingdom: The Dragon King Kriemhild
2005 The Upside of Anger Hadley Wolfmeyer
2006 Last Holiday Ms. Burns
2008 88 Minutes Kim Cummings
2010 Backyard Wedding Kim Tyler
2011 Bending the Rules Roslyn Wohl
TBD Peep World Amy
Television
* Twilight Zone as Liz
* The Sopranos "D-Girl" as Amy Safir
* Ally McBeal as Hope
* Cybill as Zoe
* Law & Order: Criminal Intent as Det. Nola Falacci
* Twin Peaks as Gersten Hayward
* The Mentalist as Rosalind Harker
* Blue Smoke (2007) as Catarina Hale
* Two and a Half Men (2008) as Miss Pasternak
* Friday Night Lights (2009) as Cheryl

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Alison Marion Lohman September 18, 1979 is an American actress. She has had lead roles in the films White Oleander, Where the Truth Lies, Flicka and Drag Me to Hell as well as smaller parts in Matchstick Men, Big Fish, Gamer (film), and Beowulf. She has also been on several television shows including 7th Heaven, Crusade, Tucker, and Pasadena.
Contents
* 1 Career
* 2 Personal life
* 3 Filmography
* 4 Awards and nominations
* 5 References
* 6 External links
Career
In 1997, after graduating from high school, Lohman moved to Los Angeles, California to pursue her acting career.For the next few years, her work consisted of science fiction B-movies (such as Kraa! The Sea Monster and Planet Patrol), television productions (including the made-for-TV movie Sharing the Secret) and children's films (such as Delivering Milo and The Million Dollar Kid). Also included was the dark urban drama White Boy.
Lohman starred in White Oleander, an adaptation of Janet Fitch’s novel, alongside Michelle Pfeiffer, Robin Wright-Penn and Renée Zellweger and directed by Peter Kosminsky. Though the film was unsuccessful at the box office (it opened to $5.6 million in 1,510 theaters), it received generous reviews and Lohman's performance met with wide critical acclaim, being described as her "breakthrough role" by media sources.
The following year, she appeared in Matchstick Men, directed by Ridley Scott. She starred with Nicolas Cage and Sam Rockwell, and though it was not a box office success either, Lohman continued to receive critical praise. Later that year, she appeared in Tim Burton’s Big Fish, which continued her trend of appearing in acclaimed but commercially unsuccessful films.
She appeared in no films in 2004, though she did voice the lead character in the re-dubbing of Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind. In 2005, she appeared in Atom Egoyan's Where the Truth Lies. The film originally received an NC-17 rating for its graphic sexual content, and failed at the box office afterwards. Some critics (such as Roger Ebert) felt that she was well-suited for the role. Her next feature, The Big White, featured her alongside actors Robin Williams, Holly Hunter and Tim Blake Nelson, but nevertheless went direct-to-video. In the same year, Lohman voiced the title character in the English language re-dubbing of Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind.
Lohman's next film was the drama Flicka, which was released on October 20, 2006. In the film, Lohman plays a 16-year-old girl who befriends a wild mustang. Lohman had never ridden a horse prior to filming and trained rigorously for a month. She said that she was "constantly thrown emotionally and physically" while working with the horses for this role. Flicka went on to become a surprise hit in DVD market.
She then played a recovering heroin addict in Things We Lost in the Fire.
Drag Me to Hell director Sam Raimi, actors Dileep Rao, Lohman, and Justin Long discussing the film at San Diego Comic-Con International in 2008.
The actress was then signed to replace Oscar nominee Ellen Page in Sam Raimi's critically acclaimed horror film, Drag Me to Hell, which was released on May 29, 2009.
Lohman, who is frequently cast as a teenager, has said that she believes she "look[s] younger and act[s] younger" than her age.
Personal life
Lohman was born and raised in Palm Springs, California, the daughter of Diane (née Dunham), a patisserie owner, and Gary Lohman, a Minnesota-born architect. She has one younger brother, Robert (born 1982). She has two cats, Monk and Clint. Her family had no industry connections, but at age nine, she played Gretyl in The Sound of Music at the Palm Desert's McCallum Theater. Two years later, she won the Desert Theater League's award for "Most Outstanding Actress in a Musical" for the title role in Annie. By the age of 17, Lohman had appeared in 12 different major productions and had been a backing singer for the likes of Frank Sinatra, Bob Hope and the Desert Symphony.
As a senior, she was an awardee of National Foundation for Advancement in the Arts and was offered the chance to attend the Tisch School of the Arts, but declined.
Lohman married director Mark Neveldine Watertown, New York on August 19, 2009, at St. Anthony's Catholic Church.
Filmography
Film Year↓ Film↓ Role↓ Notes
1998 Kraa! The Sea Monster Curtis
1999 Planet Patrol Patrolman Curtis
1999 Auteur Theory, TheThe Auteur Theory Teen Rosemary - Elliot's Film
1999 Thirteenth Floor, TheThe Thirteenth Floor Honey Bear Girl
2000 Million Dollar Kid, TheThe Million Dollar Kid Courtney Hunter
2000 Sharing the Secret Beth Moss Made for television film
2001 Alex in Wonder Camelia
2001 Delivering Milo Ms. Madeline
2002 White Oleander Astrid Magnussen
2002 White Boy Amy
2003 Big Fish Young Sandra Templeton
2003 Matchstick Men Angela
2005 Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind Nausicaä Voice, English re-release
2005 The Big White Tiffany
2005 Where the Truth Lies Karen O'Connor
2006 Delirious K'harma Leeds
2006 Flicka Katy McLaughlin
2007 Beowulf Ursula
2007 Things We Lost in the Fire Kelly
2009 Gamer Trace
2009 Drag Me to Hell Christine Brown Nominated — Detroit Film Critics Society Award for Best Actress
Nominated — Saturn Award for Best Actress
Nominated — MTV Movie Award for Best Frightened Performance
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Kristen Stewart Fashion Is Closing

This post has been written and re-written several times within the last week or so. I’ve had the most wonderful experience running this website, meeting new friends and conversing with fans over the last year or so. After careful consideration i have decided to stop posting on this blog. This is mainly due to commitments towards my own education, i feel i can not give this site the time and commitment i have given it in the past. Unfortunately i feel these standards can not be currently upheld.

I’d like to thank every single person who has ever taken the time to read any of these blog posts, left comments and personally e-mailed me over the last year. You are all truly and greatly appreciated by myself and Maria.

I’d also like to say the largest thank you to Maria. Not only has she become a friend but she gave this blog her time, talent and commitment.

The blog will still be open for anyone who wishes to view past posts however no new posts will be available on the site starting Monday the 7th March.

Thank you and all the best, thank you for making this blog such a wonderful experience.

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Kristen Stewart Fashion Blog 2011

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how do you stop punishing yourself

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We've all been hurt. i'm just like everyone else. typical story of girl meets guy they get on amazingly. Guy has girlfriend, Guy cheats on Girlfriend with girl.
Girl and guy become best friends. Girl falls in love with guy. Guy promises to leave girlfriend for girl but it's all false promises. Girl gets hurt.

This happened to me. But i don't want to talk about that. I'm over him. What i want to know, now that i'm over him when do i get over what he did to me?

It's almost been a year now. a since i stopped thinking about the guy, josh. Its been almost a year since i met sam.

I met Sam one night through a friend, we spent the whole night together, drinking, laughing the usual. He was clear from the start, he didn't 'do' relationships.
I was ok with this. I still wanted Josh but it was becoming clearer and clearer as our friendship was fading more and more that it was never going to happen.
This continued to hurt, so i thought why not have some fun on the side with sam.

As i got to know Sam, we became closer and closer. We spent some amazing nights together, some full of passion and some where we would spend hours talking
and getting to know each other. I was growing to really like Sam and Josh barely ever thought about.

Sam and i talked about past relationships, he had no shame in telling me about how he's cheated and doesn't like being tied down.

I fell in love with Sam. By this point it'd already been admitted that he was in love with me and was just waiting for me to reciprocate the feeling before we
considered a relationship.

It was only about 2 months ago that i realised how much i loved Sam. It was the scariest relisation of my entire life. The only person i had ever loved like this was Josh
and that truly destroyed me, i never realised just how much until now.

Before i explain, i just want you to know that i know how utterly ridiculous i'm being but i just can't help it.

I simply cannot trust sam. and it's hurting me, not him, me. I keeping waiting for him to turn around and realise he doesn't want me, the same way josh did.

After we hang out i keep thinking, that's it we're over or we wont talk for months because that's how josh always treated me.

If Sam does anything slightly wrong, I get so emotional, i believe that its over and he's deliberately trying to hurt me and i sometimes cry for hours, over something which
turns out to be absolutely nothing. It's all because of josh, because i showed him everything and if he didn't like it and could discard it so easily why would anybody else want me.

This isn't meant to be a self pity story. i just want to know how do you stop punishing yourself, for what someone did to you?

you are lovely

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an alarming unhappiness

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It started out as a fairytale. Even in hindsight, I won't deny that. We met online, though we were three thousand miles away, and tried to pretend we were just friends, but soon we were falling. I had started talking to him just two months before I was to head off to France for a seven-month contract, but I was starting to fall in love with him and the way he told me I was beautiful and that he loved talking about language with me; I wanted only him forever. I told him I liked him and I insisted that he either tell me his true feelings or lie and say I was disgusting and that he'd never want to be with me, because that would make it so much easier to get over him.

But he decided to tell the truth, even though he had just gotten over a big breakup - one that to this day he's not over - and of all fortuitous chances, I had a layover on my way to France in an airport four hours' drive away from him. He knew, and I wondered if he would come. I spent that first flight agonizing over the uncertainty, but giddy with a degree of sureness that he would be there.

And he was.

I lugged my bags and my guitar to the front of the airport, where he was waiting, for the hour-long layover I had between flights. His whole body was shaking, and he held my hand, leading me to a sunlit, secluded alcove under a big escalator where he laid down a blanket and gestured to the picnic he brought. He told me how much he liked me, and how much he would have regretted it if he hadn't come to meet me for the first time in person when he had the chance. I played him the song I had secretly written for him on my guitar, right there in the airport, with my back to the rest of the travelers, not even meeting his eyes because I didn't know how any of this worked.

He gave me my first kiss and waved to me as I re-entered security and made my flight just in time. That flight across the ocean really felt like I was flying, like I had sprouted wings and was high on the excitement of being wanted and feeling the potential of this perfect relationship whose start was so beautifully fresh. Then I was in France, and we talked every day online, he was charming and kind and supportive, and everyone I met was wowed by the romance of our story. Our story, I thought. I would tell it to people for the rest of our lives and it would be the sign that it was meant to be from the start. Imagine - my first love, this perfect!

He even came to visit me for a month over the winter holidays, three months after the airport. We overcame so many challenges in that brief period - my hostile roommate kicking us to the curb and leaving us to fend for ourselves, dirty replacement accommodations without heating or a functional bed frame, more rude people than I can count, the utterly insulting high prices of everything in Paris, my trip to the emergency room for a bad cut on broken glass... We survived all this, and he made me love him so much through it all. He was there for me every second, and I was grateful for that but also felt so guilty to be dragging him through my crazy life.

The day before he left, I said what I had been wanting to say for months. I said what he later told me he's not sure he can ever say to me. I don't regret it, because it's how I felt and how I still feel. Every good memory we had made during his stay - wandering Montmartre, kissing in the metro station, him lifting me up in the kitchen and smiling warmly at me, every ounce of desire he had for me that I returned - all those good things made me overlook the bad. But everything changed after that day, after that sunny morning on the mattress of the borrowed room we were in, when I told him I loved him as my heart raced and I lay pressed against him. Whether all the changes were due to my words or simply happenstance, I don't know.

But I cried so much after he left, I felt as if he had died or left me. He had a new job back home that left him no time or energy to keep in touch with me, and I felt completely alone. I moved into a new place, since I had been kicked out of the old one during his stay, and although everything there was good, great even, I couldn't feel relieved. I felt empty without him, and emptier still after realizing that I'd spent an entire month neglecting my own well-being while I tried to keep the two of us afloat in a country where he didn't know the language and didn't have the financial resources to help me out when I was in need. The good memories helped me remember how much I cared for him, and I tried to keep him aware of my affection by sending emails and offline messages, because we talked so infrequently.

I even came back to America for a little while, and we were able to talk on the phone again. But he was never the one to call, he felt too stressed about my being upset and my wanting to talk about the relationship and the need I have for there to be an end date for the long-distance part of all this (which there still isn't). And in his indifference, his unwillingness to take five minutes to send me an email or call to say goodnight, I have gained perspective. All the hurtful things he said without thinking, all the discrepancies between our needs and personal interests... And then he managed to say the thing that has been stewing painfully in my heart for the past four days: the crushing confession that he might not ever be able to love me.

I blame his ex-girlfriend. I blame his upbringing. I blame so much, and I had resolved this year to eliminate blame from my life. But the way he is, is not good for me. It's maintaining an alarming unhappiness in me that I need to get away from to feel whole again. Ending this will break my heart, and his too if I'm to believe him. The fairytale was so promising, so beautiful, so achingly beautiful that I don't want to give it up. Neither of us realized in the beginning that we were fools to think this would work. We gave it up by starting it in the first place.

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LAX February 18th

Kristen was spotted at LAX airport on February 18th. The actress wore her signature relaxed and casual attire consisting of some fabulous vintage Jet by John Eshaya Rebel Skinny Jeans. She paired them with some fantastic Vans Wellesley Women’s Hiker Skate Shoes which you can purchase HERE from Vans official webpage for just $60.

Accessories included an Urban Outfitters Ecote Canvas Rucksack. Oliver Peoples vintage re-released O’Malley sunglasses completes the look. This frame is part of a re-release of vintage looks that were acquired by Oliver Peoples founder Larry Leight. With the re-release of this vintage O’Malley frame being from 1988. The Vintage Re-Release collection will be available at Oliver Peoples boutiques and select Saks Fifth Avenue stores.

 

Vans Wellesley Women’s Hiker Skate Shoe

 

 

Oliver Peoples Vintage Re-Released O’Malley Sunglasses

 

 

Ecote Canvas Rucksack

 

Credits: Urban Outfitters, Vans, Oliver Peoples & kristen stewart fans.

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Tuli vietettyy ihana viikonloppu Niinan (aka exmanabu ja nykyne ruki from psc-cos) seuras! Kameraa en ottanu mukaa MUTTA koko aja oli jtn tekemist jote tuski oltais ehittykää kuvailemaa mitää (paitsi ruoka-annoksia.)

Suurin osa ajasta me syötiin, siis seriously _ihan_koko_ajan_, ja vasta sunnuntaina se alko kostautuu ainaki mun puolelta.. :: D Mut ainahan pitää syömistä olla ku telkkaa kattoo..

Saatiin katottua Taru Sormusten Herrasta -trilogia ilman niit (turhii) poistettui kohtauksii, jeje. Katoin sen viime vuonna, eli tokaa kertaa katottii ja myönnän et välis koin jotain 'ahaaaa!' valaistuksii. xD

Ja vaikka tykkään monestas hahmosta siin nii kyl Merri & Pippin wins! ;w; Älyttömän sulosii, ja sitte niide huumori.. nam :_D♥ Tosin se kääpiö en ny just muista nimee oli tosi hauska myös ja toi huumorii paljon siihe. x)

JA NYT HEIKKOHERMOISET ÄLKÄÄ KATSOKO ALASPÄIN!!!! 

Anteeks q traumatisoin teidät kaikki mut kaikkein inhottavin ja aasdasdsdfgmvdf hahmo kestä en tykkää yhtää on Klonkku. ;_: D:: Okei, aluks sitä inhoaa mut sitte sitä alkaa säälii ja se o kans aika hellyyttävä, mut loppujen lopuks...... not. Oon ite saanu jo kauheet traumat tost hyi oikeestien tajuu miks kiusaan itteeni turhaan googlettamal ton kuvii.

Ja Gazetet soi kaksnelseittemä. :'----D Esim rakastan istuu Niinan kyydis autos ku sil on aina joku gazen levy soimas siin~ *----* Ekana iltanaki alotettiin telkkarin töljöttäminen sillä ku neiti iski sen juuri tilatun ja saapuneen uuden sinkun dvd-koneeseen ja saatii katottuu pari livet siitä. ja kyllä Reita o edelleenki aika qmah♥ ;)

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Jjooo lopetan ihkutuksen tähän ettei siit synny tosiaa mitn romaanii. xxD Viime maanantaina oli muute ystävänpäivä, oliko mainitsemisen arvoinen päivä? Mulla se meni iha hyvi ja sain halei jii-än-eeee. ´u`
Eilinen eli kuudestoista päivä oli hassun hauska koska mun vanha luokkalaine, nykynen luokkalaine, veli ja IV täytti kaikki vuosii, jee aplodit. 8-)

Mut tosiaan huomenna lähtö Chibiconiin, ja manbailen siellä panda kigussa~ jotenki oon taas unohtanut mainita mun menoist, mut te jotka ootte tulos nii tulkaa ihmees moikkaamaan! ♥ i do not bite. ;)

Koska oon väsänny kirpparitouhui ja tää savinen kasvonaamio on pakko saada pois koska alkaa hiipii tunne et mun naamaa kuolee, lopettelen tähä jote have nice days! ♥

i want us back

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You know there's not really much anyone can say... I've heard all the typical things you would say to someone- "it gets better", "give it time", "you deserve better" etc... To be honest nothing helps. Even if it's happened to you, we can't compare ourselves. Love between two people is different, so heart break between two people is different. How it feels to you is different. It's been a month and my wound still feels fresh, it still feels like i have a gaping hole in my chest. I still think about him everyday, every minute, every second and the scary thing is I actually believe that I will never get over him. He is and will always will be my first love, the one i fell so hard for I lost myself in the process and rotated my life around his.

I met him almost 3 years ago, we were an awful set up by two of our friends in an attempt to find me- the sad lonely one- a boy. He didn't seem like anything special and to be honest I wasn't looking for him to be anything other than my first kiss. At 15 I wasn't looking for anything else. I remember that night very clearly, the awkward eye contact and avoidance... but what i remember the most was the feeling that he was different than anyone I'd met before. For awhile after that night we talked, got to know each other, became more than friends, but being 15 and so naive our 'relationship' wasn't real. We broke up and didn't talk for 5 months. What he doesn't know is that I can remember every single time in those 5 months I saw him, I wasn't over him but I wasn't about to let him know that, so I pretended to live my life. The next time we talked to each other would be at a friends party and from then on, he was about to be everything to me.

I fell in love with him. I didn't even know what love was but I think I figured it out, that feeling took me awhile to name but I felt it.I still do. We shared everything, we shared the best parts of our teenage years, and now being forced into adulthood we've changed. He doesn't want me anymore, he said he needs to figure out who he is and I'm stopping him. I've blamed myself, i still do. I'm full of so much regret and guilt and it never goes away. We're still 'friends', we talk and I'm not going to lie and say we haven't had those nights before. The sad thing is I still love him and although i know you're supposed to distance yourself to try to move on, I can't, I'm holding on to him with everything i have. Our relationship lasted almost two years, but what we had, I know it will never leave me.You can call me naive and too young but to me love doesn't have an age restriction. I'm not over it, I don't know if I will be.

I just miss him so much, i miss everything. I hurt all the time, I break all the time, I want him all the time. He left me an empty shell, wounding me so much I physically hurt.I'm not sure what to do anymore. I lie in bed for hours just thinking, just hurting. I want him back. I want us back.

Teddy, i miss you.

-K

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